empty handed

if there was a picture to describe the way i feel right now, this is it.
i am letting go.
i am empty handed.
my heart feels numb.
i have peace it will all work out

i am not completely sure this is necessarily a good place to be. given my past choices made during this time, they have been emotional and somewhat destructive to myself and my faith.
i am in a little healthier place over all, but i am still not completely sure about all of it.

this morning my boss, Mr. Rowley delivered gifts from his wife (whom i love!!). little red goodie bags presented with Merry Christmas and chocolate!!! attached to the bad was a quote from Corrie ten Boom. It has been messing with me all day……
:never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God:

like everyone, there are heavy questions on my heart, but i know something that many people do not know. I know GOD. the God of the universe. the God of the ages. the God of yesterday, today and forevermore!   a God who loves me inspite of my stubborn and at times unyeilding heart. a God that knows my inner most thoughts.  a God who is delighted in me.  a God that is worthy of all my praise and honor.

i am empty handed…

i am right where i need to be…..