taking some time

the past month has been like a whirlwind.

china

desperation

21 days of prayer

all back to back to back

the last few days have been extremely rough…….

this was the first week were it was all :up to me: in terms of spending time with God.

and I failed…..like not even a little…. miserably…

when it came to the testing of my faith, I let it all go…

sleep won….emotions won…..food won….blogs won……everything won

but not God

he was so real in china

he was SO REAL during desperation

he was very real during 21 days

maybe he was too real

maybe he spoke too much

maybe he spoke too little

whatever it was…..things have not been ok this week…..

i am trying to make sense of the things

longing to understand the huge things that he spoke…..

but i cannot seem to get a handle on all of it

marriage

ministry

stepping out in faith

what does it all mean?

i am going to take a few days a try to figure it out.

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