i am tired….
tired of running
tired of being sick
tired of living in the cycle
tired…..
this weekend i am going on a retreat….
i’ve been on a lot of retreats in my days and i know that God does some amazing things there….statically more is accomplished in a 2 days retreat then in 6 months to a year of other types of ministry….
and i am believing for that….
this retreat, unlike others that i have been on
is about me
my healing
my wholeness
my life complete in Christ
it is going to be intense
it is going to be more then i can handle at times
but God is doing something in my heart
God is breaking me apart
God is building in me something that i cannot not even begin to understand
i have a passion for ministry….
something that i want to do
something specific…..something that i am ready to throw my life into
but i cannot get to that place
i cannot walk in my future if i am not walking in the FREEDOM that God offers!!!
God i open my heart, my mind, my thoughts, my dreams, my fears, my expectations, my hurts, my brokenness, my longing, my restlessness, my boredom, my apathy…..ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!
I WAIT FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i come expectantly into your mighty arms!!!!
a humbled heart 