not a typical christmas post…

i have been challenged over the last few weeks to really simplify and understand the heart of God. to get back to a place of deep love affection. to live a life of holiness.
those are all BIG DEEP thoughts. They are things that keep me rolling along, and right now give me a hope [...]

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brokenness……plain and simple.

i am a private person…..partly due to my fear of rejection and feeling like people tolerate me instead of loving me…(I know that is RIDICULOUS!!!)

I know that God needs to be my comforter and that is something that I am trying hard to cling to…..but it is not my nature [...]

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psalms143

Hear my prayer, O Lord; give ear to my pleas for mercy! In your faithfulness answer me, in your righteousness! Enter not into judgment with your servant, for no one living is righteous before you.
God where are you? what are you doing? i am drowning here! You are a faithful God and I trust you, [...]

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let it be

i am sitting in my fav Starbucks here in the ‘ham trying to take a few minutes and process all that has been going on.  it is hard as i have not written in my journal or blogged in days because my heart has been broken and put back together only to be shattered again.  [...]

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…a strange mix of loneliness, longing, and hope…

my mind has been going ninety miles an hour………running and running in circles
wanting more and more of you….yet forgetting to invite you into what is happening

the last two nights i have sat down and taken a deep breathe…….
i thought i was ignoring you…..
thought i was putting you off til tomorrow……
but both nights [...]

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