brokenness……plain and simple.

i am a private person…..partly due to my fear of rejection and feeling like people tolerate me instead of loving me…(I know that is RIDICULOUS!!!)

I know that God needs to be my comforter and that is something that I am trying hard to cling to…..but it is not my nature [...]

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empty handed

if there was a picture to describe the way i feel right now, this is it.
i am letting go.
i am empty handed.
my heart feels numb.
i have peace it will all work out
i am not completely sure this is necessarily a good place to be. given my past choices made during this time, they have [...]

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a tacky distraction

while this week has been slightly emotional, there have been a few highlights. and as the title suggest, they are of the TACKY persuasion.
one of the ladies at work found a tree and brought it into the office for us to use as a decoration for the office.  any type of decoration would be an [...]

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asleep at the wheel….

i have not written in a while.   it has been a really busy week. i have been house siting/kid sitting for one of my best friends, Andrea.  i used to be the nanny for the kids, so this is an old hat for me, so to speak.   but having 5 kids, with 1 that has [...]

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struggling

The last few days I have been struggling with something. We have all that something that gets to us, the thing the ties us down, that at the core makes us feel like poo. Not because we acted on it, but because we have again gone back to it.
I am finding myself in this [...]

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