there are no words…..

wednesdays have long been my favorite night of the week.
worship
serving
hanging out with some really cool kids
but recently there has been an added level of amazingness……
i don’t really know what to call us….
how to describe us…..
there are no words…..

a bunch of 20 somethings going to a restaurant right before they close
ordering food
laughing (sometimes way loud)
and closing down the place

we aren’t anything special….
just night owls (some of us pretend) who need to eat

the entertainment is not planned…..
we just start talking
and slowly out come the funny stories…..
“sweet bras”
“i do a lot in 24 hrs”
“pour some sugar on me”
fun times!!!!!!

i was thinking last night during SWITCH how lucky i am
not everything is going the way i want it to in my life…..
i do not have the picture perfect life that i have wanted and/or long for
but i finally have a group of friends, crazy as they may be, that i have prayed for for so long
they are quirky…..they are challenging….they are weird….
but they are my gift from God
and i will hold them close as long as God lets me!!!

 

God preparing the way

last night i spent some time with some of the coolest ladies ever cleaning out my  storage unit…..
i was dreading doing this alone…the task was heavy and i had been growing increasingly depressed by the situation so i asked the girls to come and hang out with me…..not really for muscles…which they provided…but more for a distraction and the need for humor….which they graciously  and abundantly provided…..
we grabbed dinner….CINQO DE MOE’S!!!….and headed to the dungeon…..
we took EVERYTHING out and went through ALL the boxes to but them back in so that they can be moved to the “new house” next week….
the crushing blow of broken dishes and picture frames from people trowing stuff together and not caring when getting things out was the start of the night….
then Lucy feel in the box….and everything changed

then we found a box of my stuff from high school…how it ended up here and not at my parents house i will never know…..but in this box was a scrap book that i made my freshman year of high school…..a simple and half heart job as it was….but something i wrote struck Lucy…and she made me chant it over and over and over and over and over again (honestly surprised i have a voice today….)

I, Nicole Lynne LaRue, a wonderful child of child, will change the world.

A simple senctence that filled the lines on a page in my freshman english class speaks volumes to what God is doing today.  I needed to hear that……i needed to be reminded of what HIS plan for me….i needed to know what God has been preparing me for all these years….

God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the choas of my life.   Psalms 51:12 (msg)

every struggle makes (or will eventaully) make sense.  i will use every experience to show love to people who are lost….hurting…..in need to freedom……whatever…this is what God has called me to do……this is my future….my calling……
as long as it takes for me to get there…whatever my road…it is my preparation…it is my life…..