a lilly among thorns

over the past few weeks God has really been challenging me in the area of my weakness. scripture talks about Paul and the challenged he faced, the thorn in his side, the thing he wishes he could turn away from no longer deal with. for a long time I have felt that [...]

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brokenness……plain and simple.

i am a private person…..partly due to my fear of rejection and feeling like people tolerate me instead of loving me…(I know that is RIDICULOUS!!!)

I know that God needs to be my comforter and that is something that I am trying hard to cling to…..but it is not my nature [...]

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first things first….?

This weekend was a weekend of first for me.
To many, they would seem insignificant…
It was the first time I mowed the grass…..first time I cranked a lawn mower…..first time to push the thing….first time to do any of it….
I felt like a freakin’ hero after….
Not that it is a major feet to mow the grass….especially [...]

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taking some time

the past month has been like a whirlwind.
china
desperation
21 days of prayer
all back to back to back
the last few days have been extremely rough…….
this was the first week were it was all :up to me: in terms of spending time with God.
and I failed…..like not even a little…. miserably…

when it came to the [...]

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just around the riverbend……

i am struggling….
my emotions are everywhere….
so much is changing…….
and i can’t find my footing……
 i am getting ready to move…..i have moved a lot over the past few years so i am a bit of a pro at the packing the boxes and doing without for a while….
and while i am excited about my new roomie…..i am tired [...]

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