do you ever have those days when you just feel like everything is spiraling out of control? when it seems as if the world is against you?
lately i have been visiting this thought. not just visiting, i have unpacked my bags…hung pictures….been sleeping in the big lumpy bed….
but something has changed.
leading into the weekend things were really rough….lots of tears and drama (always drama).
several people gave me this verse
this past weekend i attended the LIFE retreat at my church
lately i have been struggling with my place in this world. God has been speaking some crazy things…..some specific things. but instead of finding freedom in what God has spoken, I got bogged down by the whys and wherefores. i forgot the simpleness of the cross. i forgot the one who spoke the truth into my Spirit.
verse 1-3 deal with a fear in my life: never having children…..
this passage talks about a woman who has never given birth. i feel like its been a desire of hers (like me….like sarah…) yet it has not happened. but as the passage progresses we see God is challenging her to expand what she is thinking, where she is living, the place she welcomes guest..she is about to me bursting at the seems.
verse 4-6 hit another fear: being alone (single) forever
this part of the passage talks about God being my husband. it has seemed like such a silly idea, but something has changed. something has been real, simple and intriguing about the idea of being married to God. i don’t have to worry about anything…God is a gentlemen and will take care of everything….my finances, my heart, my mind…whatever….he desires to love and protect me. he desires to give me hope and life. he wants to LOVE ME!!!!!
what more can a girl ask for?????????
God is just starting to open my heart to him. to the truth of who he is. the simpleness of his heart.
it is just a new journey for me. a new thought of life. a new avenue for me.
