its no secret

if you have known me any length of time you know that i want to be married. 
more then anything……(well not more then living in God’s will)
but i believe that God has given me the desire for marriage so i wait for what he is bringing into my life
but lately it has been increasingly hard
its not [...]

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my life has already started

for years i have had the mentality that my life is never gonna start
some days it feels like i am standing in the gift wrap line at a major department store and its CHRISTMAS….the sign says :now serving number 36: i look down only to find that i am holding a ticket and much to [...]

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what is worship?

last night i went to a worship concert @ a local club downtown.  first time i had been there and was quite excited.  Daniel Bashta and Jason Morant.  Having had a rough couple of days I would have taken any chance to forget about it all and boldly come into his presence.
as i was worshipping [...]

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God is sometimes funny

if you have paid attention to my tweets or my blog today then you are aware that i have been have a terrible, horrible no good, very bad day…..i could write a cute book about it…but no one would read it…
on top of the terrible, horrible no good, very bad day
my life is quit boring
but [...]

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i hate days like today……

and the sad thing~~
i knew it was coming
i felt it….
i sensed it….
but i was too overwhelmed to stand against it…..
i am feeling invisible……
i am feeling worthless….
i know it is not true
i am a child of God
i am a reflection of him
but today
i can’t breathe
i can’t stop crying
i need to feel loved
i need to know that [...]

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