expectantly

i am tired….
tired of running
tired of being sick
tired of living in the cycle
tired…..
this weekend i am going on a retreat….
i’ve been on a lot of retreats in my days and i know that God does some amazing things there….statically more is accomplished in a 2 days retreat then in 6 months to a year of other [...]

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dying of a…..jacket?

in every person’s life there are a few items of clothing that we cannot live without….
at different points it is different things……
as a child i lived in this twirly dress….
as a teenager it was a well worn pair of jeans and a t-shirt that i loved
in my college years not much changed….love a good pair [...]

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a gentle reminder….

God never gives up on his children…those that lovingly claim Him and his direction and those who are not as interested…
it doesn’t matter…..his love never fails!!!!
As i am sitting here..home alone…sick and basically sulking…God is reminding me that there is nothing in my life that he has not placed there and that HE and he [...]

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the curse

well..its not really a curse…more of a delima that i find myslef in from time to time
its spring…
its wedding season….
love is in the air….
but not for this girl…
i am here….
alone….
sick….(yes..i have cried to my mom agian in the last 12 hrs….)
i know there is a time coming when i will have everything my heart desires….
i [...]

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things i am thinking about

i have been given the oppurtunity to take a couple of days……
not by choice…..the flu kinda gives you the oppurtunity to take a break………
it has been really hard for me to cry for a while…not real sure why…..
but over the last few days with everything i am ready to cry…..
like hard core tears……..and it comes [...]

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