a light at the end of this tunnel

…for those who know me….you know that i hate feeling useless and lazy….and this weekend has been a true test of my strength and reliance on God in this area. this is been an extremely hard treatment…..after the allergic reaction i was in shock and have been nauseous most of the weekend. aside from leaving [...]

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a not so great day

yesterday was my second treatment……
it did not go so well as i had an allergic reaction to the medications…….
the nurse told my that this type of reactions usually happens with the first exposure to the medication..so it happening on the second was weird. they had to stop the drip and put some more benedryl in [...]

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rachel….leah…..and me?

For the last few years God has been taking me through some really rough patches so that I can become the woman that I need to be right? When you are in the midst of the grim and blah of life, it is hard to see the Glory that will come from the tears and [...]

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thoughts from a troubled head……

i am starting to loose it…..
literally….
the hair is starting to come out…..slowly right now…but should gain intensity in the next few days……
i thought i was ready….atleast that I what I told myself…..”its not a big deal”…”its only hair”…..
but as i found out…i am not as ok as i thought……
tears have fallen……my heart has struggled…..
but this [...]

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standing amazed

there is so much going on……
i don’t know where to start……
the blessings are pouring from the Father as i am learning what it means to live a surrendered life…….
i am learning things (finally) that God has been trying to teach me for years……
it is so BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!
there simply are no words to describe the magnificance that [...]

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